Alone

Felt alone
lonely&
lonesome
period.
no friend
no family
just too alone
wad really happen?
i really have no idea
Dear Lord please guide me through this dark hours
give me strength to regain the trust n faith on them
i really love them
Amen
hm...
a love order from God and my will
i love my parent n my brothers n also my friends
but i fail them bcus of my action
my act is too cruel
i always follow my emotion instead of my intention
i have to be disciplined
i did too much evil's work
but how?
how can i control myself?
i'm too rushy n talk without thinking
i feel sorry for everyone
totally sorry

back 2

yeah, again i'm backed but every time i am backed with bad story n news.
Haiz...
Really very upset with nowadays human 's life
feel like dying n crying...
haha...
man never cry ever!
lol....
who say...
me la...
haha still no tears
jus that these days communication
really.....
i found out that i am a lousy guy who can communicate n understand with
i dun blame for people who dun understand or jus knot stand longer with my misunderstanding
huh....
jus feel so desperately seek for death
izzit us all like this or its jus me?
huh....
friendship really hard to conserve
why i always mess up many things
why?
911
911
911
911
this are all i can think of
not that i wish for some bad thign to happen jus that remind me a person
a friend
a friend who so greatful to me
so knowing me......
am i really causing that much trouble to my friends?
i should shut my mouth n listen n nod so everything will be jus fined
but...... all i did are jus an action that i will do so that each 1 will gets fair n square thing




msg~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


jus got a msg from a friend
a friend who i should meet 2nite
her words really help a lot with my pain now
really feel better....


sien my bro wan off my 0n9
haiz....
this is for now......